Dreams and plans...After a massive heart attack Jan.4, 2010, I really didn't think I had long to live. Coma for ten days... Hospital stay for thirty...Friends packing up my belongings...Every one of my friends and relatives thought I was going to die!
But God and I had an agreement, a contract, a covenant. It's very strange how I don't remember what I went through. Not the pain...not the fear. So I have a clean slate for my dreams and endless possibilities to achieve and live this second chance!
The basic number one plan is to live to see my seven year old daughter, Gracie, graduate. She has been through hell and back. The problem is that she remembers her hell, unlike Mama.
I strive to give her stability, love, and "the peace that passeth understanding". I need to find more patience. I will. I need to love her unconditionally. I will. I need to stand up for her rights as an individual to feel what she feels and to believe what she believes. I will. I need to thank God every minute of every day for the opportunity of raising this child. I will. I need to realize that she, too, is scared of the next day and what may happen. Oh, I will!
Knowing I will never love any man but my beloved Ron, I still want to reach out to others and give all that I am cabable of giving. With limited resources and limited physical capabilites. I'm learning that the most wondrous giving I can do is praying. So I pray. All the time. When I hear a siren, I pray. When I watch the news and hear of someone's pain or dying, I pray. That's mainly why I WATCH the news now...to help those in need in the best way I can. I pray every night for family and friends. But I also pray for those I heard that day...those I saw that day...those I thought about that day. I'm always asking God to put certain people on my List Of Those I Want To Meet Someday.
Dream Three...
I want to write. Years and years ago, I dreamed of being an author. I began a romantic novel, but never finished it. Some of the pages have been lost. Perhaps that was meant to be a learning experience and I need to begin again. Heaven knows that with all the odd experiences I've had in my life, I have the fodder for many, many pages. To dream this dream again, I must begin to put my words to paper without fear of failure. That fear has stopped me from doing so much in my life!
I dream to make my blogs more personal again...to let my readers know that they are not alone in the pain, sorrow, happiness, boredom, and joys of life. Another way to do what I do best...share my entire life, both the good, the bad, and the ugly.
Dream Five...
I HAVE to lose the excessive weight. I HAVE to eat better as well as less! So much depends on this dream I've had my whole, entire life. To be slender so I can be wanted used to be my motto. But I'm learning I'm not my body. I'm my soul. Nothing more, nothing less. Recognizing my very existence, that I do deserve to be happy, will undoubtedly bring the joy and verve that have been missing for so long.
Five dreams! Five possibilites! I shall forever be grateful for the life I have been given. All of it.
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Oprah Winfrey NetworkThe New Oprah Winfrey Network
I wrote this blog post while participating in the TwitterMoms and OWN: Oprah Winfrey Network blogging program, for a $50 gift card. For more information on how you can participate, click here.
About OWN:
The New Oprah Winfrey Network New shows. New faces. New possibilities.
OWN, the Oprah Winfrey Network is a multi-platform media company designed to entertain, inform and inspire people to live their best lives. OWN will debut on January 1, 2011, in approximately 80 million homes on what is currently the Discovery Health Channel. During the OWN launch weekend, viewers will have the chance to see a little of everything OWN has to offer. OWN programming includes original series and specials, all focused on entertaining, informing and inspiring people to live their best lives.
More info: http://www.oprah.com/own
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